I woke up, but the nightmare didn't pass away. It is not a dream.
The road ahead will be really rough and uneasy. I don't know when will I get over it. I even don't know if I can get what I want afterwards. Confidence is what I lack now. So is hope.
However, "No pain, No gain", right? Just hope that I can really gain thru this pain. Hope that I can get over it as soon as possible.
I've disappointed my family. It's shameful to face myself. It's shameful to face the world.